I'm scared to be a mother now: Rakhi Sawant

Rakhi Sawant got engaged to Torontobased businessman Elesh Parujanwala on national television and they are now learning the hardships of parenting on a reality show being shot here The item girl confesses she is jittery about marriage and motherhood after having to change diapers and sing lullabies for a baby boyu00a0I am very scared of being a mother now I dont know what will happen when it happens in real life Rakhi said at a villa here that has specially been hired for the showRakhi is participating in NDTV Imagines show Pati Patni Aur Woh with her fiance EleshThe duo along with four other celebrity couples have been relocated to five individual villas here and they have to take care of infants as well as adolescents in the course of the show that goes on air Sep 28Rakhi and Elesh who seemed quite comfortable in each others company are quite upset with their experience so far after playing parents to an infant named Jai under constant vigilance of six cameras in the houseIts been a very bad experience till now Its like aasmaan se gira khajoor mein atka There is no enjoyment here The only enjoyment is probably that we are together said Rakhi who is sporting a new hairdo that she called cute and BarbielikeIts very difficult We havent even got married yet I had never imagined Ill ever have to take care of kids like this and that too manage a kid who only cries and doesnt sleep I had to change nappies when the kid pees and poops It was disgusting I didnt eat food for two days after that and couldnt even sleep properly she whinedu00a0The item girlturnedactress and her fiance whom she chose in a swayamvar on national television are also distressed with the fact that in the process of taking care of the child they hardly get time to know more about each otherSaid Elesh Finding little things about each other is the last thing on our list because there is a kid to take care of Whatever time we have to ourselves we either say why dont you take a shower or watch the child or take a nap or lets make something quickly or clean the house Thats allWe had thought we will learn a lot about each other through this show But instead we are learning about kids and running a householdThat is also a reason for their marriage being put on hold indefinitelyWedding is a farfetched talk right now I have to settle down for now And this is just our beginning We are gradually getting to know each other This show is teaching us a lot about life and ourselves said EleshAdded Rakhi Wedding is surely a long way offRakhi is also upset at missing out the fun of receiving compliments for her dance with actress Rani Mukerji in Yash Raj Films just released Dil Bole HadippaI havent got any feedback Theres no time to see TV and there is no cable connection here she rued as she snuggled up in Eleshs armsThe other four celebrity couples participating in the show are Shilpa SaklaniApurva Agnihotri Juhi ParmarSachin Shroff Mouni RoyGaurav Chopra and Gurmeet ChaudharyDebina Bonnerjee