At what point do we admit the truth?

I spent much of April and May alternating between sadness and anger scrolling through messages of despair and cries for help online There were people weeping for the loss of parents appalling photographs of bodies piled on streets and the pain of those destined to watch loved ones die gasping for air as they struggled with their own helplessnessJuxtaposed alongside these heartbreaking stories were reports of state governments forbidding citizens from broadcasting cries for help threats from local police to young people trying to organise aid requests from questionable journalists asking everyone to stay calm and the loud silence of men and women who have been screaming about the promise of better days since 2014We are a morally bankrupt nation What makes this more dangerous than it already is is our inability to accept this about ourselves Nothing not even a pandemic that has already claimed the lives of over 200000 of our countrymen has had the power to snap us out of our apathy and confront the truth that the people we elected have failed on all frontsI have been ashamed to read what former colleagues have spent their time doing while so many of us focused on survival People I worked with people who once called themselves journalists and earned salaries from media houses by pretending to speak ldquotruth to powerrdquo bent over backwards to hide the failures of our political leaders They did this not simply because they were bribed or coerced mdash because a lot of them presumably were and continue to be mdash but because these leaders pandered to the bigotry that has long taken root in the hearts of millions of us blinding us to what our country has turned into as we become pawns at the hands of criminalsIt took the worldrsquos press to highlight what we should have accepted a long time ago that India has no healthcare system to speak of We applauded the purchase of airplanes thought long and hard about buildings in Delhi that needed to be replaced and turned on those who proclaimed that tall statues and religious structures didnrsquot matter in a country that has yet to address deaths from malnutrition This is what allowed our elected representatives to divert our hardearned money towards pet schemes that helped themselves alone This is why we had to run from pillar to post for oxygen cylinders and hospital beds This is why we called reporters vultures for holding up a mirror we had long buried under our bedsWhat broke my heart was the inhumanity that crept through even in the face of unconditional kindness While thousands of people volunteered time and energy connecting patients with medical aid there were those who used this crisis as a means of enriching themselves hoarding supplies marking up products for obscene profits and even offering goods and services that didnrsquot exist so they could pocket a fee and vanish They are as much to blame as the uncaring politicians who left us to our own devices and I hope history will be as unkind to them as it will undoubtedly be to the pompous Neros fiddling in Parliament while bodies burnedWe need to ask ourselves what the tipping point is and evaluate when we should start to point fingers at ourselves instead of at imagined enemies of the state whipped out of thin air by a government more obsessed with public relations than governance We need to question why our minister of external affairs wants people outside to stop questioning India We need to ask ourselves why we donrsquot call out negligence and apathy until it reaches our doorsteps and snatches the lives of our parents grandparents and relativesEven as I type this so many newspapers gloss over what we can all see in the glaring light of day Anchors on dubious news channels are asking us to shut our eyes and accept things that do not exist Ministers are laughing off deaths as statistics and ordering us not to panic because this makes India look bad At what point do we put up our handsWhen we look back at 2020 and 2021 and remember the faces of those who were taken from us we should also accept that their deaths are a result of how we chose to live Those of us who saw the atrocities inhumanity and inadequacies of this Prime Minister and his government but refused to speak up have blood on our handsWhen he isnrsquot ranting about all things Mumbai Lindsay Pereira can be almost sweet He tweets lindsaypereiraSend your feedback to mailbagmiddaycomThe views expressed in this column are the individualrsquos and donrsquot represent those of the paper