TV actress Shama Sikander (right) is best remembered for her TV show 'Ye Meri Life Hai' (left: a still from the show). All pictures courtesy: Shama Sikander's Instagram account. The actress battled depression 6 years ago
Shama Sikander, who in 2016 had openly spoken about her struggle with bipolar disorder and how she had once even attempted suicide, feels talking about it was the toughest thing she has ever done.
When she looks back, she wonders how she overcame it.
Asked about how she felt about opening up about her struggles, Shama Sikander told in an old interview, "It's the most difficult thing I have done in my life. I don't even know how I survived! I still wonder how strong I must be to be able to survive (it)!"
Shama Sikander first realised about her bipolar disorder when her ex-boyfriend Alexx O'Neil drew her attention to it
It was during this low phase in life that Shama Sikander broke up with her then boyfriend Alexx O'Neil
However, Shama Sikander says, "to talk about it was not difficult" at all.
"I have always been unashamed of my life and not very afraid of sharing it to the world as well to a great extent," she added.
In an exclusive Facebook live with mid-day at her home, Shama Sikander spoke about her battle with depression and how she dealt with it
"Love makes me happy. I am a total love person. Love keeps me glowing. Love is my force of life. The moment I start missing love, I start feeling low," Shama Sikander told mid-day
"I love being alone and love being with myself. As I learned everything about life progressed, lots of things changed," Shama Sikander told mid-day
Shama Sikander shared tips on she fought off depression in exclusive interview with mid-day
For Shama Sikander, depression was the worst feeling in the world
Describing depression as a 'mental state where an individual tends to lose hope and feels like killing the self', Shama Sikander made light of the disease in the interview by simply saying 'this too shall pass'
Here's Shama Sikander's advice to fight depression - concentrate on things that are right, pen down things that bother you, writing is the best exercise, and stop going to parties and give time to yourself
Shama Sikander says she was advised otherwise by people around her. "Whatever I did not say earlier in my career is because a lot of people were stopping me to. But once you face death, you fear nothing. I was suddenly the most fearless that I have ever been and I could feel people and their pain more than ever," she said.
Shama Sikander told mid-day, "One can have another life in this life itself."
After fighting and overcoming her disorder, Shama made a bold comeback after eight years in 2016 with web show "Sexaholic". Soon after its release, the actress was slut-shamed and trolled on social media.
On getting objectified on social media, Shama said: "There is a lot of dirt in this world and on social media, it's like there's good and there's bad... You have to accept the existence of both and until you don't let it affect you, it is not yours. It just exists just like a lot of other things exist in the universe." Shama says "avoiding" and "focus on the good energy" is her mantra.
During her interaction with mid-day, Shama Sikander also revealed that she's a fitness freak who loves to binge on healthy meals
Shama Sikander loves smoothies and a glass of smoothie is what she starts her day with
Shama Sikander was born in Rajasthan. The 37-year-old actress rose to fame with the TV show "Yeh Meri Life Hai" in 2003. On the big screen she was seen in superstar Aamir Khan-starrer "Mann" in 1999.
When Shama Sikander was 10, her family moved to Mumbai, where she lived with her siblings
Shama Sikander enrolled in the Roshan Taneja School of Acting in Mumbai in 1995
Shama Sikander made her Bollywood debut with a small role in 'Prem Aggan' (1998). She was seen in a supporting role in 'Ansh' (2002)
Shama Sikander was also seen alongside Gautam Rode in pop song 'Mujhe Kanhaiya Kaha Karo'
Shama Sikander's hobbies include playing the violin, photography and painting
Shama Sikander is engaged to James Milliron
Watch this space to know what's in store next for Shama Sikander
We recall 'Ye Meri Life Hai' actress Shama Sikander's journey of battling depression and how she bounced back from a low phase in life when she attempted suicide